She Lay in the Parking Lot After Her Abortion, Begging God to Let Her Die
In her 2021 book, author Gina Warden told her abortion story.
Warden was only 15 when she became pregnant. Her parents were divorced. Her mother suggested abortion and made the arrangements. Her father never knew.
Warden’s 19-year-old boyfriend wanted her to have the baby and left “voicemail after voicemail” pleading with her not to abort. After the abortion, he left town, and they never spoke again.
At the Abortion Facility
She stayed with her mother for the weekend, and her mother’s boyfriend dropped them off at the abortion facility. Warden was taken into a room by a “super talkative” nurse who was “chipper and nonchalant.” Warden says:
It went from me thinking she was so sweet to thinking she was annoying and trying to hide something…and she was. She was trying to hide the fact that what I was about to do was actually going to kill a baby.
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Informed Consent?
An informed consent law requires pre-abortion counseling by a licensed physician, licensed registered nurse, or a counselor with at least a bachelor’s degree in psychology. The law said the counselor must provide “factual information.”
Warden remembers this “counseling”:
You are about to have a procedure that will end your pregnancy. Once this procedure is complete, you will no longer be pregnant.
You will be under anesthesia when it happens, so you won’t feel anything. When you wake up, you will have a pad on and will have cramps for a couple days. These will be like having bad cramps during your period but then it will all be over.
Warden was given no information about the development of her baby, abortion’s physical and emotional risks, or alternatives.
Kicked out of the Facility
Warden was put to sleep for her abortion, and when she woke up, she felt emotionally traumatized. She says:
I did not understand why I felt the way I did. This was horrible and not what we talked about previously. This “procedure” was supposed to fix everything, not make me feel worse.
She was extremely groggy, had a hard time waking up, and vomited twice. The new nurse assigned to care for her was impatient and angry. According to Warden, “She was almost disgusted with having to care for me.”
Warden was the last patient in the facility and the workers wanted her to leave, even though she hadn’t fully recovered. Her ride wasn’t back yet, but she and her mother were ushered out the door. According to Warden, who was still unable to stand, “The nurse did not care.”
Pain and Emotional Trauma
Warden lay on the parking lot asphalt, with her head on the curb, sobbing. She says:
I was in so much pain. The cramps were worse than I had ever had. My stomach hurt and I just wanted to cry. I didn’t know how to make any of the pain stop…I felt more alone and more ashamed of everything that had just happened than I had ever felt in my entire life.
Warden wasn’t sure if she believed in God, but she began to pray, begging God to let her die so she could escape her pain. She begged God to send a car to hit her as she lay there. On the drive home, she says, “I was begging to die and trying to figure out how to make it happen without having to do it myself.”
When her father picked Warden up from her mother’s house, they drove past a pro-life demonstration. Some signs said, “You KILLED your baby!”, “Murderers go to HELL!”, and “Jesus doesn’t love baby killers.”
Her father noticed something was wrong, but Warden told him she was alright. But she says:
Inside I was screaming, “No!! I’m not alright! I just killed my baby and I want to die!!!” I was barely holding it together… We pull in the driveway, and I almost run inside. I make it to the bathroom just as the vomit hits my mouth…
“Murderers go to HELL.” That sign ran through my mind. I laughed a delusional laugh while my head was in the toilet and thought, “I’m already there.”
Trying to Cope
After the abortion, Warden tried to cope by drinking heavily. She began to spend time with a much older crowd. She says she didn’t realize “that it wasn’t right for these 23–28-year-old guys to be hanging around 16-year-old me.”
When Warden began to lose her enthusiasm for drinking and refused to have sex with a 27-year-old man who was part of the crowd, her new “friends” abandoned her.
She says, “I felt empty and broken all over again. In my very immature and trauma-ridden mind, this was all because I was just not worthy of love. I was being punished for killing my baby.”
Warden continued to struggle with post-abortion trauma. She became engaged to a Christian man and mentioned her abortion during pre-marriage church counseling. Unfortunately, she was “immediately shamed” and forced to leave the church. She and her fiancé did marry, but she wound up divorced and raising two children alone.
Horrific News
One night, something happened that caused things to get even worse. Her abortionist was on the news. She found out that years ago he’d been caught throwing aborted babies in the trash. She wondered if that had happened to her baby.
But he was in the news again because he was caught sexually assaulting women while they were under anesthesia during their abortions. Warden says:
I had been through that kind of trauma when I was younger, and I felt violated all over again. I not only had an abortion by this doctor, who might have thrown my baby in the trash, I also might have been sexually abused by him.
Eventual Healing
Although it took years, Warden did eventually come to a place of healing.
Her story shows the trauma abortion can bring and how it can be compounded when pro-life Christians are cruel to post-abortive women. Fortunately, many Christian groups are supportive of post-abortive women and help them find healing.
Christians need to follow the words of Jesus: “Judge not, and you won’t be judged.” Jesus gave no exceptions to this command.
Every post-abortive woman, regardless of whether she regrets her abortion or whether she struggles emotionally, deserves compassion and acceptance.
Those of us who haven’t faced an unplanned pregnancy should be grateful we were never in that position. And those of us who experienced an unplanned pregnancy and chose life shouldn’t judge those who weren’t able, for whatever reason, to make the same decision.
For those of us who are pro-life, we need to work for a better world where women are empowered to choose life and face fewer obstacles and pressures. We have no right to judge or be cruel to anyone, or to see ourselves as superior.
Gina Warden Jaded No More: Abortion (2021) 24–26, 30–31, 34, 36, 54–55
This article originally appeared on Live Action News.
LifeNews Note: Sarah Terzo covered the abortion issue for over 13 years as a professional journalist. In this capacity, she has written nearly a thousand articles about abortion and read over 850 books on the topic. She has been researching and writing about abortion since attending The College of New Jersey (class of 1997) where she minored in Women’s Studies. This article originally appeared on Sarah Terzo’s Substack. You can read more of her articles here.
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