I regretted getting pregnant and was depressed for nine months, says new mum Bianca Gascoigne
BIANCA Gascoigne has bravely spoken about suffering from antenatal depression.
The 36-year-old welcomed her first child with partner Arron Wright earlier this year and has told for the first time how much she struggled throughout her pregnancy.
Bianca – daughter of famous footballer Paul – admitted she was depressed while carrying Blake Sunshine and had “serious doubts”.
In a lengthy post, the new mum candidly wrote: “My beautiful Blake Sunshine has made my world it seems incredible she has only been here for 6 weeks, I feel like she has been here forever..
“To think that when this picture was taken I was in such a different headspace. I’m ashamed to say at points during my pregnancy I wondered what the hell I was doing having a baby! I felt so disconnected and so down right up til delivery.”
Offering her support to others, Bianca continued: “I want to reach out to any expectant Mums out there going through something similar, you are not alone and things will totally change once you hold your gorgeous bundle in your arms.
“Please believe me. I got by on the hope that his would be true whilst still harbouring serious doubts….It really does happen….to think during the majority of those 9 months depressed, overwhelmed unsure of my future….. I want to have another!!??? Yes I am actually thinking towards having a second.”
She added: “Obviously not right now…. I am enjoying this precious time with Blake Sunshine but to be thinking ahead to a second baby???”
Bianca and Arron, who have been dating for just over a year, revealed her daughter had arrived safely at London’s Portland Hospital on February 20th and called the tot “perfect”.