I was a huge reality star but I’d be cancelled if show aired today – it was car crash TV, says Vicky Pattison
VICKY Pattison is convinced she’d have been cancelled had the early series of Geordie Shore been filmed in the present day.
The former reality star found fame with outrageous antics on nights out in Newcastle in the early 2010s.
For all her on-screen bravado, Vicky said she was never truly herself on the show and felt pressure to act up in a way that would be deemed more entertaining.
Speaking on Chloe Burrow’s podcast: Chloe Vs The World, Vicky also told how she is terrified by the finality of cancel culture.
She said: “I don’t know anyone in the world who has said something they haven’t later regretted.
“If Geordie Shore was on now I wouldn’t have got away with half the sh*t. I certainly wouldn’t be sitting here 15 years later.”
Vicky described her era of reality television as “the wild west” and said production companies had a better duty of care nowadays.
She said: “We were very naive. It was a car crash TV show.”
Geordie Shore was infamous for the cast’s boozy antics and non-stop partying. Sex, fights and fruity language might have kept viewers tuning in, but for Vicky it was turning her into a person she no longer recognised.
She said: “I was growing into a bit of a wrong’un.
“One night sticks in my mind. I was about 26. I wanted to wake up in a clean house; it was a total sh*t hole with sick in the bin.”
Vicky said she had mentally checked out of the show and was feeling miserable when a producer encouraged her to drink away her problems.
The telly worker has since apologised to Vicky.
“If you do it long enough you totally lose sight of who you are,” said Vicky.
“I was too busy being who I thought they wanted me to be for the show. Slowly, I thought ‘I am not happy here any more’.
“I had always really struggled with my place on the show, being divisive with the viewer.
I wasn’t a loved character which was fine. I sacrificed respect for attention and I have spent years trying to … I am f**king boring. Wholesome is a nice word for it…
“I am so not the person I was. Not an inch of me that misses it.”