Christine McGuinness sparks concern as she reveals there are days where she ‘wants to disappear’ amid autism struggle
CHRISTINE McGuinness worried fans after admitting there are ‘days she wants to disappear’.
The reality opened up about the struggles she faces as someone with autism.
Sharing a photo of her sitting in her car, she explained the stages of an ‘autism meltdown’.
Christine, who split with Paddy McGuinness in 2022, said: “‘Might delete later’ kinda post (scared emoji)
“Because my autistic self likes to present perfection, this goes against what I like to share but it is part (a small part thankfully my ‘moments’ are few and far between) of me being authentically autistic me so,” she continued with a breathing out emoji.
“The music in my car helps to block out the noise in my head music is medicine for me,” she continued.
“And understanding the spiral really helps, I hope the visual representation helps others too.
“(Every person is different and may feel differently, for me this is very accurate) be kind to yourself, remember it passes, it always passes.”
The mum-of-three added: “P.S, I am absolutely fine, I don’t want to worry anyone. And my feeling of ‘I don’t want to live anymore’ is more often like ‘I just want to disappear for a while’”
Christine ended her caption on a happy note, teasing some “exciting news” that she will be sharing.
Fans rushed to offer their support, with one writing: “Relatable. Part of our actual lived experience and that’s ok. We are enough. What a brilliant role model of self care you give to your amazing children.”
“Big hugs,” another wrote, while a third said: “I hope you are ok. Seek help and support if you need it. X”
Christine, who shares three children with Paddy, has spoken out about why they still live together.
The couple were married for 11 years before deciding to call it a day.
And while it’s unusual to be co-habiting with a separated spouce, Christine insists it’s in the interests of her kids.
Twins Leo and Penelope, 10 and Felicity, seven all have autism and their diagnoses saw Christine discover that she was also on the spectrum.
“It’s the one thing that we completely agree on – the children’s needs come first,” says former model Christine, 35.
“We don’t want them to be affected by anything.
“Patrick’s diary is busy, as it always is, so he very much dips in and out of the home, because he’s working away a lot.
“The same as when I was his wife, I’m there to support the children when he goes out to work – that’s how it is.
“When he comes back, that’s when I’ll try to put some of my work in.
“It doesn’t affect the children, because they’re not moving anywhere.
“They’re in one home, in their beds every night, and Mummy and Daddy come and go depending on our work schedules.”
And yet it is the same £4million family home that appears to be at the centre of the divorce battle.
Recent reports revealed that Christine has hired “pitbull” lawyer Catherine Bedford to fight her corner and help her avoid having to sell the house in rural Cheshire she loves so much.
Last month, Paddy indicated he was preparing for an expensive process, admitting on This Morning that he was going back on tour for the first time in six years, because his “money has run out”.
The divorce is not something Christine will talk about today, citing “legal reasons”, but she does hint that continuing to live together isn’t sustainable in the long-term.