I saw videos of my sister having sex and I have fantasised about her ever since
DEAR DEIDRE: I DIDN’T think of my sister in a sexual way until I found videos and pictures she made with her boyfriend on her phone when I was looking for music to play.
I was 16 at the time and saw things that I shouldn’t have.
I am 28 now and my sister is 34. She had filmed herself using sex toys, naked except for stockings and high heels.
I instantly became aroused.
There were other videos of her giving her boyfriend oral sex.
I felt so guilty watching them but because I was aroused I started pleasuring myself.
It made me feel like I had never felt before.
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She went on to marry her boyfriend and they are very happy.
Even though it was years ago, I still feel so guilty, and I have tried so hard to blank it out, but I see images of her when I have sex.
I find myself fantasising about her.
She has no idea I know, and I would never tell her.
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DEIDRE SAYS: You were only 16, and hormone levels run very high in your teens, and these videos stirred inappropriate responses in you.
Knowing sex with your sister is forbidden is adding an exciting element when you have intercourse.
My support pack on Sexual Fantasies might be useful for you to read.
If these feelings do not fade naturally, think about having counselling.
My support pack on Counselling tells you more.